Sunday, March 29, 2009

Lend Me Your Ears, I'll Sing You A Song


I’m so blessed in so many different regards. I had the most wonderful weekend. My life is so much different now than it was 3 years ago. It is exactly what I have always wanted it to be. I feel fulfilled. I had the privilege of having a really great conversation on Friday evening. It was not particularly deep, but rewarding nonetheless. I don’t want to gush over the details, but sometimes you just know when you’re in the presence of really great people. You can feel when friendships are being born and strengthened. Anyway, this all got me thinking that I’ve been so blessed my whole life with really amazing friends and acquaintances. I have especially grown to love those that I’ve met since moving to Colorado. Not that I don’t care immensely for all of my friends, but those that I’ve met in Colorado have really helped to hold me up during a period of great conversion. I feel that I’m approaching the end of that sometimes incredibly bumpy road called Transformation and it feels amazing. It feels right. My point is, the bumps in my own personal road would have been a lot worse had it not been for some very special people.
I don’t think that anyone truly knows and can understand why I’ve chosen the lifestyle that I have except my Heavenly Father. If and when I do open up to people about the way I grew up, they seem to think that they know why I’ve chosen to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, they say things like “that explains it!” They know the least. To be quite honest, most days I don’t even know why exactly I chose what I have chosen except that I know of its truthfulness and denying the truth makes you a liar. I’m not a liar.
So, I guess what I’m really trying to say here is this : I am a very blessed individual and I have been graced by the presence of some of the most beautiful spirits to walk the earth.
One of my friends who has taken on this sort of weird mother-like role in my life is always handing out unsolicited advice, and although most days it’s not asked for I secretly and well, sometimes not-so-secretly yearn for it. The single greatest piece of advice she has ever given me is to always choose life. You can choose life or death in nearly all instances. Choose life. Those two words run through my head nearly constantly every day. She also once told me to marry a blow-up doll. I’m choosing life by not taking that advice. But, when you’re in her presence, you feel of her greatness. You feel of her kindness, warmth and strength and most days I want to just have an ounce of those qualities that she so naturally possesses. And there are so many others like her in my life and during those times when I might frown on the events of my past or the circumstances surrounding my childhood, I have no choice but to get on my knees and thank Heavenly Father for blessing me so significantly. Man, don’t you just want to go out and hug somebody right now?
Oh yeah, I got a fish. I’ve named him Richard. He’s incredibly smart and very handsome. I may have to dedicate a post to him. He’s worthy of dedication.

Five things I’m grateful for –
My Great Grandmother
My Grandmother
Simplicity
Barns – I love barns
Richard – my new fish

Top five pieces of absolutely unsolicited advice I’ve received from Sylvia –
“Choose Life”
“Keep chasing those physics things and you’ll end up in the arms of a man” (yes physics as in Avogadro’s number)
“Marry a blow up doll”
“Gggiiirrrlll, you best get your dag-um rear in gear” (she’s from the south if you couldn’t tell from the “dag-um”)
“Be honest with me”

May each of you feel as blessed as I.

1 comment:

  1. Ha ha ha how did I know it was Sylvia?! I love it!! Hey and come que Richard? What happened Romeo? I like Romeo better-if he ever offs himself you will know it's because he was bitter about the whole name thing ;) I love you!

    if I could give you any advice I guess it would be to always sing no matter what no matter when just DO IT!

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